Unsent text message to Peyton

I went to the clown store today and everyone knew you.

I was polite at the end because that’s who I am, not because the date went well. It was exhausting. You talked at me, over me, ignored obvious signs I was uncomfortable, mocked me for wanting to leave. Then you made the ending about how I hurt your feelings? Girl, some of us have JOBS in the morning. Go ahead and mock…

Guess ill go **** myself

Maybe after this I can find a nice cliff to yeet myself off

I just want to go home and be alone

Im tired of being given attitude when im trying to help

I didn’t block you out of hatred or malice or any other negative emotion. I blocked you because it was the only was I could heal and try to move on. I would just see you everywhere, sharing a song on Spotify with someone and your profile would show up, typing in “A” on Facebook or Instagram and your name would get…

Wasnt a show Was a game I want my prize Bunch of sore *** losers

I keep hoping you're on here, reading my posts. Maybe that's why I keep writing them. I wish you knew how much I miss you and how often I think about you. And how much I love you.

I wish we could talk. I don't want to go over everything that happened. I just want to talk to you. About life, about stupid things, about…