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Why did you do it? I was honestly ok living my moderately miserable life. Then that day happened you came in sat next to me and said “would you really want to see them”. That was all it took to open a door I had no ******* clue what was waiting on the other side. Why keep it up though? Why keep telling me how much you always felt about me and how badly I could hurt you? Why keep telling me that I will be fine. You knew, you must have known. It’s not you that gets hurt. It’s you that feels guilty about destroying other people. That’s a lot different than what you led me to believe.
And honestly it’s pretty simple with me. All you had to do was not set a bar you were going to fall hopelessly short of in a few months. I can’t tell if you aren’t interested anymore. If you think you are doing me a favor. I don’t know what to think. It would be one thing if things fizzled out but we never even had enough time together for that. I know it’s mostly because 🐜 boy is back. You say it’s not going to last but the way you focus seems to have fully shifted. I am starting to think that’s probably not the truth. Who knows what the truth is with you.
I don’t even know what the point of writing this is. A vain hope to feel a little less grief idk. I should have known better. I did know better for a long time, but somehow you knew exactly your dagger would slip right past my armor. Still why start this if you weren’t even going to let it at least play out a little. You are right I am getting tired of the disappearing act. Because that’s what it is an act. I ask for very little of your time and always end up with none. So that’s what I’m giving now nothing.
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