Unsent text message to Paige

It's been four months since the worst relationship of my life. I didn't want another, and you just spawned into my life and you are everything: you are love.

I'm trying my best to not self-sabotage... My anxious episodes never felt this calm and normal. It's almost like an excited-attachment instead of anxious or…

Hey. Still really just missing you tonight. Again. I was thinking about when we were talking about dates to go on together, and what we could do together to have fun. Girl we could go anywhere. We could be in a sewer, a desert miles and miles from shade, the Arctic with no jackets, or the moon with no air and I would…

I don’t even need you to like me. But I need you to be honest with me.

I didn't even want you then when I did you ******* ghosted me hours after telling me you loved me and that stung bad i waited a week for something and you never said a word so i sent a closure text and blocked you now you have 2 ways to find me and one of those are going when i can

i loved you when things were good and…

In all of my sorrow I actually thought you was going to be different. I thought maybe and i believed in you. And now think about you more than I would ever admit. It’s terrible I wanted to just go slow but you kept pushing me away. We got too close right? And I felt it the shift and I was right. You quit coming over…

Just tired of being harassed

Anyways How are you🫠😶‍🌫️