Unsent text message to Vanessa

I read something today and it hit me pretty hard

Controlling yourself from reaching out to someone you deeply want to talk to is a different type of pain. It takes so much strength to stay distant when every part of you is screaming to break the silence. But what hurts even more is realising that they are doing just…

Its a you problem. I chose to end it because your take advantage of women and pretend to have feelings and emotions but its fake. I don't want anything to do with you that's why you're blocked. You chose to abuse have multiple women that is on you. Im living a great life. Thank God your f gone. Men don't do what you…

Godd it’s so hard to move on from you when so much **** reminds me of you. My job, your sister still talks to my niece, your mom looked me up. My music taste was always so similar to yours. I went to see Malcolm Todd today and all I could think about was you. I don’t even know what steps to take anymore to leave you…

Good morning my friend,

I’m sorry we missed each other this week. I want you to know I’m here for you on the hard days too. Happy to bring ‘take in‘ and let each other vent about life and play a game and chill. I would love for us to be a place where we can breathe together, laugh about the ridiculousness of life…

Why after all this time? Why message someone close to me? I haven't bothered you nor' anyone close to you for months. I was busy having my "50 ways to say goodbye" moment. Either way, sorry for how the person in question responded. I don't control anyone else's actions. Hell, I'm not even that great at controlling my…

I dreamt about you ***** last night…

It’s crazy that after so long I can still remember, even subconsciously, every inch of your body…how you look…how you feel…

It was a nice reminder at least. Needless to say I woke up a happy boy…shame it wasn’t real though