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Hey Friend, I’m trying to figure out this friendship thing, and honestly, I’m not sure I’m doing it right. Is it okay for a friend to appreciate your smile? To feel that little tingle when you smile at her? To have something as simple as your smile brighten her entire day without you even realising you’ve done it? Is it okay for a friend to tell you that you have a ridiculous smile? One I absolutely love seeing, probably more than I should? Because your smile does something to me. It always has. And it makes me want to… Oh, for f***’s sake. There goes my brain again. Anywaysss… I’m trying, you know. Trying to quieten my heart, stop reading into things, and find a way to just be your friend. To appreciate you without wanting something I know I probably shouldn’t. But there’s this ridiculously thin line between what a friend feels and what I feel for you, and somehow, I keep finding myself standing right on it. Sometimes I think I’m doing okay. That maybe I can manage this. That maybe I can have you in my life as a friend and learn to be happy with that. Then you smile at me, and suddenly, I’m not so sure. So tell me, am I doing this friendship thing right? Because I’m genuinely trying to find my place in your life. I just wish my heart would stop trying to turn it into something more. And maybe that’s the hardest part of all. I’m trying to learn how to be just your friend, while a part of me still wishes I could be the reason you smile like that. And I have absolutely no idea what to do with that.
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