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I have PTSD. Like I actually lost my mind for a moment there, I’m not even exaggerating. This isn’t being over dramatic, I want you to really sit there for a second and re read this, do you even know how bad it got. All because I cared, about YOU. All because I wanted to be HEARD. All because I wanted to be SEEN. I HAVE PTSD because of you. And the more my body terribly slowly detaches, the more I wonder how I cared so deeply in the first place. I have so many questions, and I hold all the answers. I’m not mad, I never was, I was only sad. I was praying to be mad. Instead I went mad. I felt shadows. It was as though the break sucked your soul out of mine, though traces do linger. I speak to it, maybe out of habit cuz that invisible string is slowly fading out. I love you. Would I change where I’m at? No
Xo
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