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I did love you. But our situation made it hard for me to feel secure. I became toxic. I didn’t know how to express my boundaries properly, so a lot of it came out as fighting. I could’ve handled things better and not hurt you the way I did. I'm sorry.
I still care about you and miss you. I don’t hate you. I just wanted a relationship that felt clearer and more committed. I know you couldn’t give me that, and I understand why you wouldn’t want to try. I wished it could’ve been you, though.
Part of me wants us to start over, but I know we’re fundamentally mismatched. I’m afraid of hurting you again, and I’m afraid of having to pick up the pieces all over again if it ends the same way. The past few months have been hard enough. I wish we had met under better circumstances.
In the end, all I really wanted was for us to understand where the other was coming from. If I had handled our last fight better, maybe we could’ve at least ended things on a call. I could’ve seen you and talked to you one last time, properly.
I hope you’re doing well. I hope you have the peace I couldn’t give you, and the time and space you wanted for yourself.
T
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