Unsent text message to Taylor

You can still find me because of my online presence. It’s hard saying goodbye to the life we almost had here. It doesn’t work without you being here and sober and happy to be of service and that just wasn’t who you were.

Now I know why you were terrified to let your family back into your life. They enabled you to ghost…

Remember when I said I would love you bald and toothless? It’s been a year. I hope you’re a totally different guy now.

I swing wildly from wishing you all of my stomachaches and flinches to praying to the sky above that you found a way to be happy.

Tonight I wish both. I hope you look around every corner, terrified…

Why don’t you touch me more? Why does everything seem perfect yet I’m so ******** frusterated. Why won’t you **** me? Why do I have to be the one to initiate. You make me wonder if you’re even attracted to me. YOU approached me! You complimented me! You told me you like me! You complimented me! Why won’t you **** me…

I don't care what the haters and strangers who know nothing about us have to say. I am not rejecting you when you come back. I am not better off without you. And as my heart has told me from the beginning, I can't say no to you. I just need to know it's you. So when you're ready, I'll be there (if you need anything).

Yo…

I can see a lot of the constellations tonight.. well after being blind for 10 min but still lol

Hey, I just really miss you. I hope you're actually taking care of yourself, and that people aren't telling you a bunch of ******** you don't need to hear. You are absolutely enough the way you are. Your kindness, your selflessness, and the way you bring light and life into people's lives isn't just enough, it's…