Unsent text message to Caleb

I never thought the person who once knew my heart so well would become the person who made me feel like I meant nothing

I don’t ******* deserve any of this. I know our situation was difficult, and even until the very end, I tried to understand you. I accepted the things you believed were best for you, even when doing so felt like it was ******* me and ripping my chest open over and over again. I kept trying to understand your…

There is not much time left it is coming to the end. I wanted us, you made it clear and continue to show me you don’t. So even though I never wanted to you have shown me for years now, that I am and we are nothing to you. I won’t hate you so you can hate me all you want. No one would have done what I did for you out…

Take a little trip to see me do I can sit on your face?

I should be furious that you discarded me. And I am. But I just wish we could talk. So much has happened. You're quite literally my only friend. Although I would never tell you that, you'd just say it was me being manipulative. But it's true... all I do is talk to my dog and try to keep all my hurt to myself.

I miss…

She gave me a ride to work on her e scooter. And at one point she was like "you need to scoot up" like to get closer to her so I did. And then I bought us both a triple shot of espresso. And we talked for a bit. I know we are just friends, but them hips bruh. Omg. **** was cool. Shes cool af. Made my day, I was just…