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I don’t ******* deserve any of this. I know our situation was difficult, and even until the very end, I tried to understand you. I accepted the things you believed were best for you, even when doing so felt like it was ******* me and ripping my chest open over and over again. I kept trying to understand your situation, your struggles, and your pain. I accepted your goodbye because I wanted you to be okay again, even if it meant that I would have to drown in the aftermath. But what hurts the most is that, somewhere along the way, you never seemed to consider how deeply this would break me too. You treat me as if I never struggled, as if I never tried, when I gave this relationship everything I had. You treat me as though I committed some unforgivable crime, or as though I am someone you need to distance yourself from completely. And even now, despite everything, I’ve tried to keep a positive mind. I never held resentment toward you. I never wanted to make you feel guilty for choosing yourself. So I have to ask: why? What did I ever do to you to deserve being treated this way? You didn’t even give me a dignified goodbye. After three years of loving you, it hurts to be made to feel like I’m someone unworthy of love, when all I ever did was love you the best way I knew how.
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