Unsent text message to Elizabeth

Hey D..the title is what I changed your name in my phone to. I wish you would just apologize for ghosting and tell me why saying what I said scared you so much.. the truth is, if we were going to be friends, I couldn’t move forward without talking about it. it wouldn’t have been fair to either of us.. but the thing…

Girl…. i’m not really sure what you’re going through, but I am sorry if I did anything to make you upset or mad. 💔

since we broke up. why are we still here? i have accepted that we cannot be together right now, although i did hope that you’d come back by now, telling me that we made a mistake by ending things and that you never want to lose me ever again.

oh well.

i’m okay though, i promise. i feel like myself again! been going on…

Say what you want it’s not gone affect me. I know what the truth is.

I used to just care about physical compatibility. Because this wasn’t for romance. But after you, it feels like everyone else is just a fraud. They don’t understand me the way you do. You would just look into my eyes and know what I am thinking or feeling.

I notice it. I notice how to you im just not there right? Sometimes i just keep wishing from thr people around me to look at me with love and come in and just save me from , from me just believing that im truly alone.

No one comes tho .its not like a loud crying wish , its mostly supress by the heavy goals and burdens…