Unsent text message to Caleb

Say what you want it’s not gone affect me. I know what the truth is.

I used to just care about physical compatibility. Because this wasn’t for romance. But after you, it feels like everyone else is just a fraud. They don’t understand me the way you do. You would just look into my eyes and know what I am thinking or feeling.

I notice it. I notice how to you im just not there right? Sometimes i just keep wishing from thr people around me to look at me with love and come in and just save me from , from me just believing that im truly alone.

No one comes tho .its not like a loud crying wish , its mostly supress by the heavy goals and burdens…

you have 2 female friends who act like they get paid to run interceptions

who tf called me a player? i ain't one of these YNs out here sweating for a pay stub i'm a coach. imma teach these b*tches how to layup

You could say I miss who I thought you could be. The version of you in the beginning, when you were still pretending. But I don’t miss who you really turned out to be. I don’t miss the constant negging, the fighting, the gaslighting, the stress and confusion you put on me. I don’t miss walking on eggshells or the lump…

I’m here for anything you’d want to talk about.. Yell at me, curse at me, whatever you need to get your feelings out, I don’t care. I caused the downfall, burn me if you must. Your birthday is coming up and I’ll send a happy bday text. Ignore me if you want, but just know that I still think about you, two years down…