Unsent text message to James

Real Love is when that person know who you are and they still want to be involved

Real Love is when you haven't heard from a person and you haven't seen a person but you pull up to their house or wherever you know where they be at to make sure you see them

Rare love is when no one only that person can change your point…

You betrayed me in a way I couldn’t even conceive. If it had been anyone other than you, I could have handled it better. You destroyed me. Why did it have to be you?

Sometimes I really think about k— myself. Just to make it stop. I would never do it I’m not that weak. But it weighs on me. Today I thought abt h— from the tree at that house. Too many people would miss me. Maybe not that many. Just my family and maybe a few people Ive met a long the way. I’ve wronged everyone I’ve…

I pretended that I couldn’t see You slipping away and looking at me differently

See it’s not that I’m mentally inept as you probably think. I just hoped in the end you’d pick me. As pathetic as that is, it’s different with a kid and though I’d seen that the fairytale may no longer be, he still had stars in his eyes…

Seems like a lot of fighting tonight...

I don't know what to think. I just know that I care about you. Ngl you still confuse me. You won't text me or call. I'm left with no answers, just assumptions. Its maddening. All I can do is be your sunshine. Somehow I feel like that is what you need most. 🌻 🌻