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I pretended that I couldn’t see You slipping away and looking at me differently
See it’s not that I’m mentally inept as you probably think. I just hoped in the end you’d pick me. As pathetic as that is, it’s different with a kid and though I’d seen that the fairytale may no longer be, he still had stars in his eyes when he saw us embracing. Even though for the past 365 days you were faking.
I was willing to sacrifice myself in the midst of it all, though you saw me as the wicked queen. There was still an innocent boy I was protecting. And while I felt you drift and watched you make a different choice my soul sank for the heart of the boy. The boy that had his world shattered right in front of me and all I wanted to do was pick up the pieces and glue them back together as my eyes welled up with pleas. Don’t make him pay for the crimes of me. I’m sick I’ll change I’ll pray I’ll do anything.
And we watched you walk one step after another away from the home we’d built. 2 months ago and it still isn’t the same. We had some rough times but you know she turned the final key.
You gave up on helping me, abandoned our boy and left selfishly. I never would’ve done any of this if I thought you’d walk away.
An this changes the narrative but I’m still a human being. Our boy has changed and I watch helplessly while you soak your throat at the bar, drowning the words you can’t speak.
Good luck Romeo. Guess you think your chances are better without me. I understand your hurt I understand your grief but personally, there’s not a trial on this earth that I’d be willing to risk the way that boy sees.
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