Unsent text message to Jesse

That the first couple nights i played sleep token all night to help soothe me to bed or that I've cried so hard that eyes grew puffy. Did you know i still have the pictures of you and regret that in my anger, i deleted all the ones i had of me so you could never see my face. Did you know that i did it to my voice…

what you look like

All I remember is a small creature of love and pain

😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔

We started off as friends, and you came into my life when my heart was hurting. You gave me the space and time I needed to heal, never rushing me or expecting anything. I wasn’t looking for anything, but over time, I found myself slowly falling for you… and honestly, I’m nervous to say this, but I love you.

Still taking the baker to Ellis Island? Just wondering. Can’t wait to see the judge.

I have been hurt so many times. So much abuse, so much trauma.

You are so gentle. The way you look at me, talk to me, hold me. The way your voice sounds when you tell me you love me. The way you kiss me. Slowly at first, letting me take the lead. Even the way you touch me.

I’ve never met a man like you. The only problem…

Dear Trevor Ive been thinking about how I would react if/when you came back into my life again. Would I be happy? Would I be sad? Confused? Excited? Would I act like nothing happened! like you didnt throw me away again, like you didnt once again show me what Im worth to you? If Im being honest I dont know how I feel…