Unsent text message to Haley

Still taking the baker to Ellis Island? Just wondering. Can’t wait to see the judge.

I have been hurt so many times. So much abuse, so much trauma.

You are so gentle. The way you look at me, talk to me, hold me. The way your voice sounds when you tell me you love me. The way you kiss me. Slowly at first, letting me take the lead. Even the way you touch me.

I’ve never met a man like you. The only problem…

Dear Trevor Ive been thinking about how I would react if/when you came back into my life again. Would I be happy? Would I be sad? Confused? Excited? Would I act like nothing happened! like you didnt throw me away again, like you didnt once again show me what Im worth to you? If Im being honest I dont know how I feel…

held your hand or touched your arm or hugged you in any way.

looking back now, were you just indulging me?

why did you linger outside the door, like you might want it to last a little longer?

or did it bother you, but you thought it was better to just let me…

I love doing missionary positions.. the way I can keep eye contact with herr.. smiling and playing with her... Laying over her body.. slippery... Holding her hands tight... Kissing her neck.. ears.. cheeks.. while banging her as hard and deep😭

I'm thinking I get a panic attack about my ****** loveife

It's bothering me so long I feel so bad about it and I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to find someone or something meaningful, I go out, I'm in a course, I try dating apps, I'm working on myself and it's still just not enough. I don't even get…