Unsent text message to Trevor

Dear Trevor Ive been thinking about how I would react if/when you came back into my life again. Would I be happy? Would I be sad? Confused? Excited? Would I act like nothing happened! like you didnt throw me away again, like you didnt once again show me what Im worth to you? If Im being honest I dont know how I feel…

held your hand or touched your arm or hugged you in any way.

looking back now, were you just indulging me?

why did you linger outside the door, like you might want it to last a little longer?

or did it bother you, but you thought it was better to just let me…

I love doing missionary positions.. the way I can keep eye contact with herr.. smiling and playing with her... Laying over her body.. slippery... Holding her hands tight... Kissing her neck.. ears.. cheeks.. while banging her as hard and deep😭

I'm thinking I get a panic attack about my ****** loveife

It's bothering me so long I feel so bad about it and I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to find someone or something meaningful, I go out, I'm in a course, I try dating apps, I'm working on myself and it's still just not enough. I don't even get…

Hey, just wanna send you a song and tell you how much I miss you.

When I started to twist the knife you put in me for you.

When I gave you what you want.

When it cost me my life, my everything.

I bet you didnt even think twice...