Unsent text message to Gabriella

Not to think of u

Just so u know

And trying to take this boundary seriously

That gets harder and harder each day…

I’m just.. well… here

You want to fix it make the effort plain and simple. What you have done to me to protect your pride and ego will never be forgotten.

How's it going? What are you up to? Anything good? Were you thinking of me? It's ok if you weren't.

I'm still stuck on us baby I love you and I miss you so much I want you baby I want you so much

and suddenly, achieving anything in life feels pointless when i can’t tell you about it and hear you say you’re proud of me. i hope you liked the funeral, i didn’t feel you there but hope you were watching. i feel utterly alone in this world without you. i can talk about how i should have been there more but i was…