Unsent text message to Caleb

to know

physically and for real

right here

that’s the only way…

Thank you quarter man for wonderful memories, but we are 2 different people now. I learned over time when someone doesn't listen or ask how you are and they assume they know what happened. Then they never knew you at all. The camera wasn't at my house. But you know best. I will see you on the flip side. I did and do…

I know you struggle with the way things are in your house, and I'm empathetic towards that, truly - I am.

I know you struggle with having meltdowns, and when you talk to me about it, when you come to me with remorse days later, I feel that remorse and I forgive unconditionally, even if that remorse has never come with…

Hey, this is what you wanted. Remember? A life without me. I’m giving you what you wanted. Now you can feel less guilty about it.

I was banned. It’s never been like this it’s bad. Im scared. I need you please I know my mouth must stay shut. I see you. Remember I’m a wingnut if my account is not active. I’m with you. Please I just need from you where to stand. Your mouth look at my face. It will save my life. No response is will not end welll for…

I miss you so bad love. I'm still thinking about you all day long. I catch myself looking at my phone way too much, hoping that you will reach out. I miss your head resting on my chest and holding you close. I miss your touch. The longer I'm deprived of it, the more I want it. We have fun no matter what we do. I miss…