Unsent text message to Peyton

It sucks, especially when you actually love someone. You can waste your whole life waiting on them, but sometimes they aren't coming back. That's the hardest part. They aren't dead. They just don't want... you.

I didn't think I wanted you, either. I'm just afraid of someone else filling my shoes. Being with you every…

Despite myself, despite you hurting me…

I only want you to text or call or anything.

I’m not even motivated to move at this point I’m shutting all the way down. I’m depressed I hate this please please please come back

55 every 60 mins, new bennies.. and new distraction………

Genuinely think one of the most intimate things in the entire world is wanting someone when your tired… like wow. I just had the longest day ever and don't want to speak to anyone but i really want you to sit next to me.

blank my mine, please

I wish I could say, “I wish you the best.”

I do not. Why should I?

You don’t deserve it.

...manifesting me at 4 am.

I was sound asleep when I began to smell you and the tears pooled against my pillow case. Allow me to absolve our contract, as you wish. You have removed any options for contact and relinquished control.

I would have loved you with every cell in my body until the day I died of exhaustion…