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i was unmoored. every shred of what i thought made me, ME, was taken. the only ballast left was that i was a mother.
when you left, and i was relieved because it was torture to not be US anymore. because what we became was not us.
and so i let the wolf in. i allowed him to slowly, softly, gently, erode those parts i loved most about myself. and he did it at the very same time that i was opening up new parts.
and that’s the tension.
i loved the new parts. i’d hoped they’d been there all along. but the cost was so high. and i didn’t realize it until later when i rebuilt. again.
and then there’s you. with decades of knowing me. children together. you’ll never be out of my life and i know you want more.
just want to say, the wolf has nothing on me now. what happens with us is up to us. i’m finally free of him. mistakes were made everywhere. a flood of mistakes rained from hurt, abandonment and betrayal. mine. yours. ours.
but you should know you hold an incomparable piece of me. still. idk if we find our way back together for life but i am your friend for life. no one has as much of me as you do. and i will treasure that like a precious jewel.
the wolf ate everything, good and bad.
i’m on the other side. finally.
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