Unsent text message to Mark

Damn you . Bc I want to say hello but I said I wouldn’t come over there .

You tried to "read" me and instead got read yourself. Just always know that we can go there. Faster than they can, faster than the average person. How'd those apple taste? Bitter I hope.

I know I desperately need to just cut the cord and be done with it, but God it's so hard to bring myself to do it.

Years of precious memories with you that I can see the perfect way to preserve. I can see the path clearly in my mind, the path to understand each other and be what we were again.

I can see that path…

It's been five and a half years, N. When we met, we were just kids. When we eventually went our different ways, we were barely adults. Now I have a fiancee, and you have a husband. You graduated with your bachelor's and moved 400 miles away. I dropped out of university and enrolled at a local community college. I…

Hey so you probably blocked me but if not *** was that? Like I know in the beginning we worked together and it would’ve been awkward to pretend I didn’t exist considering the circumstances but there was a whole extra year of your back and forth bs after that and I just ??? Are you genuinely just that emotionally…

I think there is a reason why we didn't work. We can only get so close before we to trigger each other. This cycle is tiring.

You are hella smart, and resourceful. I think you were right to walk out all those years ago. Why did you make a half-assed attempt at returning?

To play with my feelings? Make sure I'm not…