Unsent text message to Kayla

I love you so much. I am overcome by emotion - ur least favorite world

I just want YOU to be happy and want YOU to be at peace. If my absence is what helps you get that then ok. Just know that I am here in case you need anything. I miss you soooooooo much. I am just going through life like a zombie. But every ounce of…

Yeah. I don’t love you anymore. I haven’t for a while. You just kept doing these things that turned me off and eventually you got physical with me. That really just put a bad taste in my mouth. It’s hard for me to hate people, the only other person I hate is my mother. You and my mother.

I think you’re lost. You’ve…

I know the truth now. All of it. Every single thing you ever told me was a pathetic, manufactured lie. You lied about having a child. You lied about your past, you cheated with so many men and women and lied, lied about your sexuality, your health, and every single detail of your life. You are a complete stranger…

Wishing there was a chance I could talk to you before the universe forces us to run into each other again. I’m waiting

I would send this.

Since I don’t honestly believe it would make a difference I simply won’t.

Here goes.

I never needed perfect nor did I want it. What I needed and wanted was the ability for each to own their side of the fence…

I want you. I want to send but we went through so much it became toxic and I’m scared u use it against me. I want u to **** me I want to see u are u him just give me something give me a voice a face anything. Don’t leave I can’t get u out of my head ughhh. I want more than just online I want friends with benefits we…