Unsent text message to Jason

I want you. I want to send but we went through so much it became toxic and I’m scared u use it against me. I want u to **** me I want to see u are u him just give me something give me a voice a face anything. Don’t leave I can’t get u out of my head ughhh. I want more than just online I want friends with benefits we…

The whispers in the wind keep telling me to stop posting.. but for some reason I don’t obey them.

The pictures got a message across. Totally spotted the entire week after those were posted. Now every time I get wound up over being heart broken over him that happens. Starting to think I might actually be knocked up…

To move on now. I cannot wait any longer hoping that someday you will open up to me again, talk to me again, let me know you again. Even when I know that you will never see me the same again, you will never love me again.

I am very well aware that I do deserve that and a lot lot more. I knew that all the while hoping…

When I met you, I fell so deeply in love that it was like it didn’t or couldnt feel possible, unless it happened to you ..like an undeniable force i couldn’t fully comprehend or explain.

And then the thing even more amazing is that when I looked into your eyes I seen that you felt the same way.. I noticed you to, were…

You walked away because you said you felt weird but I'm always here, just a message away. Not waiting, but worrying sometimes.

Was watching a series which had a forbidden romance plot. Didn't think much of it when I turned it on because it's a cliché but some of the scenes reminded me of you. I'm not even sure if we can called what happened a romance. You'd probably mock me for making a parallel btw the situations. But I'm thinking about you…