Unsent text message to Peyton

I know the truth now. All of it. Every single thing you ever told me was a pathetic, manufactured lie. You lied about having a child. You lied about your past, you cheated with so many men and women and lied, lied about your sexuality, your health, and every single detail of your life. You are a complete stranger…

Wishing there was a chance I could talk to you before the universe forces us to run into each other again. I’m waiting

I would send this.

Since I don’t honestly believe it would make a difference I simply won’t.

Here goes.

I never needed perfect nor did I want it. What I needed and wanted was the ability for each to own their side of the fence…

I want you. I want to send but we went through so much it became toxic and I’m scared u use it against me. I want u to **** me I want to see u are u him just give me something give me a voice a face anything. Don’t leave I can’t get u out of my head ughhh. I want more than just online I want friends with benefits we…

The whispers in the wind keep telling me to stop posting.. but for some reason I don’t obey them.

The pictures got a message across. Totally spotted the entire week after those were posted. Now every time I get wound up over being heart broken over him that happens. Starting to think I might actually be knocked up…

To move on now. I cannot wait any longer hoping that someday you will open up to me again, talk to me again, let me know you again. Even when I know that you will never see me the same again, you will never love me again.

I am very well aware that I do deserve that and a lot lot more. I knew that all the while hoping…