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I hate you, I genuinely do with all of my heart for everything you took from me. For the first year we spent together initially felt great until you became distant, started dismissing how I felt and my boundaries but worst of all you made me feel trapped. We talked about starting a family together, I bought my first car with you, I wanted our dream home with a large yard and a big garage for us to fix up our cars like we’d always dreamed. But someday the excitement of seeing you turned to dread, I started feeling uncomfortable in my skin and worse in my home. Our trip to New York was supposed to fix everything, almost two years in and yeah maybe I was selfish but I wanted you to change so badly, to stop being rude, stop being distant and most importantly stop being violent. I could dismiss the yelling at me, hitting walls, slamming car doors, and yelling at me for a crumb hitting your already dirty car floor. But you hit a speed bump so hard with my best friend in the car that you broke your exhaust clean off and almost hit another car, on our way home a ny state trooper got you going 90 in a 65 running on empty while I was asleep in the car. I’m rambling at this point but I’m sorry I never gave you closure to us ending but I meant every time I said I love you, I’m sorry you didn’t chose us but I got tired of fighting. Please never date anyone ever again you’ll only hurt them too because you don’t want to change. It should’ve have been a struggle to not tell your family what you did to me. It’s not protecting your image it’s protecting my peace.
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