Unsent text message to Connor

you make me want to fall to my knees and whimper aloud.

i beg for you.

thinking of you; against my will, consciously and subconsciously.

the mean girl domestically abused me and assaulted me and sucker punched me in the jaw when I was defenseless 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔

\-😔

Do you see me? Hiding in the corner away from the crowd

Not wanting to be seen or noticed

Trying to hide what can be used against me and seen as forms of weakness

I don’t talk openly in a group no public speaking will ever be seen…

I may joke around a lot, but in all seriousness, I have no idea why you’ve been on my mind the way you have.

Day one: understandable Day two: okay… Day three: yeah, this is getting heavy Day four: at this point, somebody shut down my mental

I was doing perfectly fine until you popped up out of nowhere, and now I’m…

I let my guard down and watched an emotional connection unfurl.

How stupid my imagination can be. Hyper fixating on what could be, the disgusting amount of things we have in common, how I could try and make this work since the connection feels sincere...

And just like that, your dating profile comes back, it was never…

If you are going to wreck a home and a marriage at least check on the person. Don’t just wreck it and leave them. By themselves. SHOW. UP.! Call! Do SOMETHING