Unsent text message to Laura

I should have said "Yes" sooner.

Your name might be a bird but you aint no dove, everytime you come over, we be making love, she got me addicted to crisco (nothing rhymes with crisco)

I was searching for something in my phone and came across this..

If you had a problem with me, we could've talked about it like adults. If you wanted to end things, then just say so. Instead you ghosted me. A coward's way out. I'm disappointed in you.

I asked you for space before you went on a trip that we planned and were supposed to take together. I didn’t want to talk until you got back because your rebound decided to surprisingly buy a ticket to meet you in Ireland. Instead you reassured me before you left that you were ending things with rebound before you…

I miss you so much hamza. Where are you my love? Why do you have to stay there where you are so stressed and not really free? Why do you put up with that feeling as if it is a necessary part of your life? I go around and around just to end up wanting you and only you. I hope you stay safe forever. Stay safe and wholly…

Acceptance.

I know you're with her, and I think to myself, maybe it's for the best. It probably is. You deserve someone that could be there for you. Someone strong enough. Someone whole and completed.

I won't always be here, even if I am. I'll go stand in the corner, eyes low and accepting. It's weird, knowing you'd be…