Unsent text message to David

Because now I know we really cannot work and never will.

I don't hate you. In fact, this Columbus Day 2026, I feel sad knowing that there is no chance for us.

I think that, it seems, you asked that we start sleeping together again. I'd want that, if we knew how to get along when we're not in bed. It'd be another cycle…

You had a 100 reasons to leave,

But I had 1,000 reasons for you to stay.

I can hate you as much as I want for how it ended but for another second of those eyes and that smile I would do it all again.

Is it really that easy? Where did I park my car? Seriously?

I’m scared that the days without you are becoming more than the days with you.

I know these words will never meet your eyes. Just buried grief in thin disguise. Four years , I’ll miss, whether that was the true you it’s unknown. I mourn that ghost, not who you’ve shown. I know my faults I know my share, But loss weighs less when you don’t care. No kin, no friends, no place to run, just fading…