Unsent text message to Chase

How’s your lonely life over there in MS? Did you get back on Tinder after all your preaching about hookup culture? Were ALL of your ‘values’ a lie?

Did you run to another “nurse”? Back to the first?

I loved you. I let you walk all over me, my life, my wallet, and our friends. You left me twice, because I was dumb enough…

You were so kind to me and I want so much to be your friend. I enjoyed txting you so much late at night over the summer. It felt like I found a true friend. We shared so many common interests that I thought of you as kin. I’ve been so terribly lonely taking care of your relative and it was nice having a friend for…

We’ve both had time apart and have grown separately in different ways. I just hope that one day, if we do come together again in that way, the people we’ve become will align. Never know what the future holds.

I keep thinking about u,

Wherever u are….

I hope ur at peace.

I’m forever grateful to u for getting out of the fog…

Which sounds ridiculous when we're not even talking.

It's called Secure Love, by Sue Johnson. It's about attachment. About what happens when two people love each other but fear gets tangled up in the middle of it.

I keep wanting to send it to you because reading about attachment changed so much for me. It gave me words…

You were lying in bed thinking about me that early, huh?? IDC. Just glad to be on your mind!!