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I think I miss you too much today. I don't even know what to do with myself. I’ve mentioned your name so many times today. I even texted you a picture of our restaurant to see if you remembered which table we used to eat at. And then I wanted to tell you that I miss you. But I couldn't. Is saying “I miss you” considered romantic now? I know we agreed on no romance. But I miss you so much today . And then I started thinking about why I'm feeling this way. Why I'm so tired. Why missing you hurts this much. It's because of him. I'm sorry, but I'm too weak right now to think clearly. I'm too vulnerable to be reasonable. And if I'm being completely honest, I know exactly what I want. I want the texts between you two to fizzle out. I want whatever possibility began on September 6th to quietly disappear. I want that spark to go away. I want those butterflies to die. I want whatever is growing between you two to freeze like a harsh Minnesota winter. I want you back. I need you. I miss you. I love you. And I'm so so tired.
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