Unsent text message to Savannah

yea we both were **** with eachother

but i felt like we couldve worked it out if you communicated

because i know i tried so hard to keep this alive

i want to text you saying that i miss you alot…

and there are alot of questions i wanna ask but you’ll ignore it and defend yourself let curiosity **** me

I did it, i actually walked by your place and something let go! For the first time I feel happy and starting to feel free!

I hope you have a good life. I am not sorry for letting you go. You were not good for me, you brought your traumas and had me paying for them, you looked for attention from others, you became the…

I knew it years ago, I thought I made a mistake or saw things differently, but you didn't chose me then and neither did you now or in the future. I can see now that our situationship wasn't right for me and it was never going to evolve to fulfill my needs or give me the chance to be a partner to you.

I set myself up. My shadow worked in secret so that I could finally let my ego die. And let go of pride. ****. Rip...

But wont explain why that is. I was bound to **** it up as I do to all things i try to hold onto. One day in the future, when I've built my clean time back up. And I've continued to do the right thing. Maybe idek. Whatever. Nevermind.