Unsent text message to Zach

Hi my love, I really miss you… I miss the person I got to see smile and laugh… I’m sorry I was the one who brought you so much pain…💔😞 I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you from that experience… I always wish I could go back in time, fly to where you are, and just figure it out sometimes. But… I’m still in school, I…

It was no longer any use for me to keep texting you. If you remember how I used to be, I could find any excuse or any reason to reach out. I was desperate for us to work. I wanted us to be together so badly that, even when I knew our relationship wasn’t good for either of us, I still kept trying. I kept holding on…

We haven’t talked in quite some time. I think apart of me is scared to approach you. You made it clear that you didn’t want to date. I wasn’t ready and it wouldn’t have worked. We tried being friends but you then you got drunk and said something that really hurt me. I removed you and you blocked me. We haven’t spoken…

I’m so soccer mom coded.

One day KG - we will meet again. I know we have issues. We have distance. We need a little more time. You and I can be better versions of ourselves again and one day we can find new love and respect for each other. Let all the bad fade away. I cannot wait to have a life with you in it again and I am working so hard on…

I miss you and I still want you. But I’m trying to live my life without entertaining these desires.