Unsent text message to Alexis

It was no longer any use for me to keep texting you. If you remember how I used to be, I could find any excuse or any reason to reach out. I was desperate for us to work. I wanted us to be together so badly that, even when I knew our relationship wasn’t good for either of us, I still kept trying. I kept holding on…

We haven’t talked in quite some time. I think apart of me is scared to approach you. You made it clear that you didn’t want to date. I wasn’t ready and it wouldn’t have worked. We tried being friends but you then you got drunk and said something that really hurt me. I removed you and you blocked me. We haven’t spoken…

I’m so soccer mom coded.

One day KG - we will meet again. I know we have issues. We have distance. We need a little more time. You and I can be better versions of ourselves again and one day we can find new love and respect for each other. Let all the bad fade away. I cannot wait to have a life with you in it again and I am working so hard on…

I miss you and I still want you. But I’m trying to live my life without entertaining these desires.

It’s getting harder to hide what I feel for you. I can act normal. I can keep my distance, pretend I don’t notice you, pretend my heart doesn’t change the second you walk into the room. But then I catch you watching me. And suddenly I’m fighting not to let you see how much it affects me. Because the truth is, I look…