Unsent text message to Grant

Hi mylove... It's so weird not seeing my favorite notification anymore, You.

6 days ago I couldn't imagine my life without you and that fear came true. You gave up on me, You promised me... You told me you'd marry me and have a grand life with me. No matter what life gives us or challenges we had to go through it'll be…

today i went to the park across from one of my childhood homes with my friend and it wasn't my childhood trauma causing tears to well up in my eyes .. it wasn't the memory of satan speaking to me directly in that house.. it wasn't all the people I've lost and gained.. or even the passage of time itself which you know…

All day ive been having this feeling in my stomach, like worrisome. Youve been on the back of my mind all day. I can’t get you out. I want to text you so badly. I want to hear how you are doing. I want to know how you are doing good and that my gut feeling was wrong. I want to know that you are okay. I won’t text you…

Your my favourite what if, I wish I had you even as a friend . You are beautiful thank you for being in my life even for a short time

You came through. I've hated you enough now I'm working on indifference.And hopefully one day I have no emotions when I think of you or see you in passing because you are not someone worth my attention. You are nothing you are a mirror of what you projected upon me you are an empty shell that had to destroy me to feel…

Tbh you looked so good before you left to go see him. I haven’t seen you put makeup and straighten your hair in awhile. I miss you putting that effort in for me but I get it. You know I think you are beautiful inside and out with no makeup and not trying at all. It just sucks to see you going out to impress him when I…