Unsent text message to Noah

You came through. I've hated you enough now I'm working on indifference.And hopefully one day I have no emotions when I think of you or see you in passing because you are not someone worth my attention. You are nothing you are a mirror of what you projected upon me you are an empty shell that had to destroy me to feel…

Tbh you looked so good before you left to go see him. I haven’t seen you put makeup and straighten your hair in awhile. I miss you putting that effort in for me but I get it. You know I think you are beautiful inside and out with no makeup and not trying at all. It just sucks to see you going out to impress him when I…

it's common for those with your issues to deny their actions but it is genuinely creepy to think i would enjoy being complimented by seemingly older guys in my dms and in response to my stories. i hate men. i hate being decieved. i have PPD. i think ive made it very clear i hate being catcalled, hit on, i hate being…

I don't know how to stop thinking about you. If you ever asked me how I am, I'd tell you everything- all the embarrassing thoughts, maladaptive daydreams, tear-stained pages about just you. I LOVE my solitude, but you have disrupted my peace and contentment with it. I've never felt this irrational or illogical. At…

...is reliving all of the terrible moments and thinking to myself that I could still fix everything. Looking at each horrible thing you said and did and then feeling like a failure for not being able to remedy the issues. Imagining how even now, after everything that has happened... what a triumphant tale of…

But I am falling more and more for you each day that passes, and I can't help it... When you first messaged me after finding out about my terminal illness, you had no intention of starting something with me. You only wanted to wish me well. But we started talking, and every day since have been the best days of my…