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I wrote this in my notes. Idk if I’ll ever send them to him but I definitely need to share them with someone. Please be kind.
I need to be honest, I need more and I want more. Mutual desire for commitment, consistency, growth and communication. Ive been trying to understand and find the balance between our wants, needs and desires. But I think while trying to do that, I’ve neglected my basic needs and put them on the back-burner. The last thing that I would ever want is to force you to do or be something that you’re not. If my needs are too big of an ask from you, thats okay, just tell me. I’m not going to try and convince you that I’m worth the time and effort. I feel like enough time has passed where you should be able to see where this is going.
In more recent times we’ve shared I feel tolerated and not desired. I feel like I’m a chore for you.
I want to tell you that, “All you need to do is tell me that I’m asking for too much and that we should end this now.” At the same time I feel like I don’t have to because your actions (from my pov) are basically screaming at me to leave you tf alone.
The more I write, the dumber I feel. I shouldn’t have to tell someone who started all of this that I’m feeling neglected multiple times.
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