Unsent text message to Patricia

I’m excited to be back home this weekend with my lovey’s. ❤️

I have not been active in the dating scene for years. I’m on the dating apps, but nothing came out of it. Until I met you. When we met, I didn’t really feel anything, not worry, not excitement, just nothing. I saw you more as an acquaintance, one I would meet once and never speak to again. But you pursued, and now…

The choices you make sicken me. Two girls in one night when that morning we woke up together. You love me so much and don’t wanna leave me alone and yet you have the audacity to come back and ask if i hate you. Idk why i feel so sorry for you. This life you have is so depressing and it’s ******* everyone in your life…

How's that therapy working out for you? You know the one where you said you wanted to work on yourself and need to break things off between us to focus on yourself? The one where you said you wanted to make a logical decision for yourself, instead of an emotional one, no matter how happy I made you and made you feel…

to do list:

\-get money \-disappear with the loml \-find the loml

I’m sorry for spiraling and becoming so angry. I said things that I don’t mean. I was hurt by your words and scared. I don’t want it to be like this between us. You bring so much happiness into my world and I can’t see a future without you in it. I feel it deep in my soul that you do love me…I just don’t think you’re…