Unsent text message to Zoe

It’s been almost a year since you disappeared. Not a word before it, just … gone.

I dream about you sometimes. Generally just random things. At some of those favorite places you showed me photos of, doing mundane things, just enjoying each other’s company.

I’ll never know what made you decide go just disappear. I wish I…

Now I know how truly insignificant I am to you. Now I know you will always drop me in a second without notice if Ant-Man gives you the tiniest bit of attention, so he can come over and use you. Then leave you alone to go be with the people he actually cares about. I’m over it. It’s happened too many times now. When he…

And taking care. Trying to move on but it's difficult which makes no sense. You didn't choose me at end so don't know why I'm struggling W it . Anyway still wish you to be happy and wish we could be mates

How could I ever forget those eyes,

The kind that turned my whole world upside down?

I swear I waited my whole damn life

Just to find you, then lose you somehow…

I wish it wasn’t more trouble than it’s worth. Which is really saying something, you know I appreciate trouble. Especially the doubled, toiled kind… but you just don’t seem to play fair enough to even win. You do want to win, don’t you? Oh well. Your brain will jump through miraculous hoops to make your current…

Are you happy now? I hope you are. If I’ve ever crossed your mind, I hope you know that you cross mine every night before I go to sleep.

I push it out and try not to think about you. I know it’s not a healthy habit but sometimes I rather just try to get you out so I never really have to feel anything…

I don’t want to…