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Are you happy now? I hope you are. If I’ve ever crossed your mind, I hope you know that you cross mine every night before I go to sleep.
I push it out and try not to think about you. I know it’s not a healthy habit but sometimes I rather just try to get you out so I never really have to feel anything…
I don’t want to wonder why you’re not in my life anymore or feel any remorse, sadness or regret. I don’t want to wonder what in the world we could do or say to one another to fix things — I don’t even know if that’s what you really want too 🥺
I’m just glad we got the time together that we had. I want to cherish that feeling for the rest of my life.
I should probably reach out and tell you how I feel to get closure but I feel like it’s too risky… because even false hopes or living in a delusion in my head that we may reconnect in the future and be together again is better than a reality where we’ll never be together again.
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