Unsent text message to Justin

I will never hate u....

No matter how things ended between us, a part of me will always want the best for you. And even from distance , I'll still quietly pray that life is kind to you....

You said you would wait.

You said you understood

You said take my time

So I've been doing the work…

I don't know what you want or don't want. I'm guessing either do you. All I know is that I'm getting whiplash, and motion sickness from this roller coaster that I might be on by myself. I have no effing idea. But it's driving me freaking crazy.

~ R

I still miss you. I still long for this to be a nightmare I can wake up from. I wish you would finally unblock me and stop treating me like a burden… I love you with my whole entire heart and soul, even still. After everything you did, I would still take you back. I don’t want to move on. I don’t want anybody else. I…

It’s strange that somebody can make you so happy when they are with you and things are good. When they flip that switch because they are tired of you or bored of you the world feels like it comes crashing down. It hurts so much to be rejected and forgotten by the one you want the most. How does this come to be? This…

I wasn’t sure if I should let you know or not, it seems like you want nothing to do with me. I got my dream job, the one we always talked about… the one at the same location as you. I haven’t run into you yet but I’m terrified to… it’s funny bc when I was unstable after our breakup I wanted nothing but to see you and…