Unsent text message to Vanessa

I'm genuinely becoming convinced at this point that you really might be the only person that I can actually tolerate and enjoy the company of.

What a shame I have no idea how to tell you so.

I miss you, see you soon (I hope).

Your A

I am sorry for everything, I hope u know that. I take full responsibility for everything I’ve done to u..I wish I could undo everything and make u the happiest girl ever…I still love u <3 good bye my lover

I wish I never saw you on your daughter's birthday. Even as indirectly as it was. Except for when you waved at me, but I couldn't even look at you. I felt I was on a good healing track before this evening and now, the deepest parts of me ache for your laugh, your hugs, to be in your space. I all love you and all of…

I have so many questions that I know I’ll probably never get answers to.

Did you ever actually love me? Or was all of it just an act to you?

How did you change so drastically? How did someone who once made me feel so wanted become someone I can’t even reach anymore? And why do I still miss you when I’m so angry at you?

I…

It is strange being in this, I don't even know what to call it. But we were very together, attached at the hip, very in love but now we are very apart and very separated. I too still love you very much. I wish things could go back to the way they were. But like you, I'm starting to begin to accept that this may not be…

Listening to See Me Again and I think, it’s just as narcissistic as you are and that’s a compliment btw no shade. I love you and I always will but you gotta invite me to your wedding for experiencing an all out wedding from your community.

Dang Chiku *** is this song 😭 I catch myself smiling at how cocky you are. Miss…