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Over the last week this sr has been I think extremely helpful in getting out all of the things I can’t say to you because I’m blocked. Kind of praying that you’d be lurking and see them but mostly that you don’t. Anyway I’ve finally come to realize (begrudgingly af) that I deserve so much better. I wouldn’t tolerate the way you’ve treated me for someone else nor would you. I realize now that you’re not actually everything I’ve built you up to be in my head. That I’m too smart to have been willing to excuse the love bombing, the gaslighting, and the ghosting. In the end, I was just a role that you wanted to try out in order to realize what you didn’t want. You never wanted me unless I pushed you away, that was the only time you fought for me. When i finally loved you completely and let my guard down, i was discarded. The biggest thing that bothers me tbh is that at the end of our contact, you said a few different things attempting to gaslight me into not feeling the way i felt about you/that it wasn’t that deep. **** you the most for that. I obviously experienced it differently than you but then why the **** did you say all of the unprompted **** about marriage and babies. I thought I was matching energy. I can admit I was wrong about you being a ****** shallow person, but I’m not wrong for how I felt. I said it was different than anything I ever experienced and I still feel that it was. That being said, I don’t want it back.
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