Unsent text message to Aiden

To my person,

What have I done to you that makes you avoid me like the plague? I thought you knew me. So, please, tell me what makes you think I'm going to do anything to you or even approach you? What have I done to you that makes you act like that when you see me in public? Neither of us were perfect in the…

Today’s your birthday, a time of the year that has made me angry, sad, melancholic and so much more for the past 4 years, but not today. No, not this time. To my surprise I had actually forgotten about it until I saw your Instagram story and even then I felt little to nothing, so then everything hit me. Why moving on…

I wish things could go back to like it was. Those conversations The ones where we could talk about anything. How you used to say „I still feel something to you.” And how you used to say. „I’m not abandoning you.” I miss those daily calls or texts that you would just check up on me. I miss you being in my life. I miss…

What am i doing what am i doing, i need to stop messaging you. Please stop responding, i wish you could hate me🫩

You know exactly why I stopped reaching out.

You got angry, lashed out at everyone, and said things that didn’t need to be said. Then somehow the people you hurt were expected to come back and convince you to apologize.

And we did.

We actually had to beg you to take responsibility for something you had already done…

Let me love you. Let me make you feel good. Let me take care of you.