Unsent text message to Blake

I know it's wrong that I shouldn't play along and play the part so well because im bored. I made you feel special and like I really expected more from us then passing the time had you playing house and talking about a future on your land with me being youe wife . It was fun while it lasted. And when it's was over it…

I know it’s ridiculous, but sometimes I get this sick feeling in my stomach now that you aren’t in my life and I search to make sure you didn’t like die or something. I get so freaked by your silence especially after how long it’s been since you’ve said anything and then I go down like a 2 minute panic attack rabbit…

I changed my number recently, and I realized I don't really have a way to check in on you anymore. I still see you around town occasionally—at the store, at the park—but with time and your new look, you feel like a stranger now. Maybe in some ways, you always were.

I just wanted to put it out into the universe that I…

You are where you want to be. It’s not with me.

I made you a playlist that I’ll never send but I wish I could but i understand it wasn’t ment to be we where just talking that’s it

Ive had to make u hate me so u can be happy. And so i can learn to feel safe again...

After its all said and done....i miss u terribly.

You are my best friend and i will always love u but ive gotta let u go. I hate being a burden to u and i hate having u live in a state of anxiety over me. It feels like i lost a huge…