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Ive had to make u hate me so u can be happy. And so i can learn to feel safe again...
After its all said and done....i miss u terribly.
You are my best friend and i will always love u but ive gotta let u go. I hate being a burden to u and i hate having u live in a state of anxiety over me. It feels like i lost a huge piece of myself.
Everyone says i should be happy to be rid of u.
But i truly feel lost, no direction, no clear path of wat the future holds.
But i also will never be happy again...missing u everyday hurts more then i can even put into words.
Ive slipped into a depression so deep i cant see the light anymore...
I wish i couldve been less afraid of u ,believed u changed, but u didnt and thats the worst of it still telling everyone im this or that when all i ever wanted was to be loved...
By u
Having ur new gf call me was an all time low so i doubled down on everything u ever said to me....
U wanna paint me as the bad guy then bebold.....u jst created a villian...
And i will never love u the same again....
Ive gotta fix my own life at this point....i looked to u for help and got nothing but laughed at
I asked for ur love and got cheated on
I begged for ur friendship and got ridiculed
I hoped ud really stand by me but got left behind
I know now that ull always be happy with a new teddy bear then have me in ur life....
And i forgive u...
And i forgive myself for spending so long trying to convince u that i got sick living in that house....
I really wish things could have been different.
But here we r so theres no going back....
I will find happiness one day....but it wont be with u
I wish i could say i hate u...but i never will....and that ***** me the most.
Goodbye my love, if u wanted to u would have.
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