Unsent text message to Lucas

My favorite flavor is your love. I want that flavor to last.

So I won't swallow

Won't swallow you whole

But will you swallow me

My head hurts, I can’t sleep, there’s nasty thoughts running through my head of thing’s you said. Things you can’t take back with words. Things you don’t seem to care to take back.

Well… idk, I just want the pain to end. However that has to happen.

Hi there C. There are so many tremendous things I’d like to share with you but obviously can’t. There are so many days I speak to you hoping you can feel the words.

You moved on, and that’s ok I understand. Although I miss you more than you probably know. You helped me navigate and recover from some of the darkest…

I wasn’t asleep when you kissed the top of my head

This time last year when I met you ....never thought that we'd be this close. Sometimes I think that you liked me back.. I still do. I miss you and I tell no one. I cry and tell no one. I wish I could live that moment again when you took one look at me in a crowd and just came over and hugged me. I cried knowing how…

I like the way you feel in there too much.

I will wait.