Unsent text message to Grant

Hey, I want to explain.

Before making big decisions, I try to take three days if I can. That way, I'm not making a choice based on snap judgment or on flared, surface level feelings. Three days to weigh my options, pros and cons, wants and reality, and any presenting evidence. It feels like torture sometimes. Both in…

My heart and my head are at constant odds Trying to figure out if I’m responsible for you or not I have two different stories playing out in my head at any given moment one where I leave and one where I stay Logically I know that I deserve more and deserve better but my heart feels the hurt it would cause you and our…

What is good about the morning

You said “you never would have married me “. The thing was I always wanted to be your wife. I just didn’t want a wedding

I finally admit it to myself, but I wish I hadn't.

I shouldn't love you.

You'll never reciprocate.

I wish I didn't so deeply crave an opportunity to make this real…

It is an addiction,

Obsession,

Devotion,

Desire…