Unsent text message to Alexis

So which is it bc theres no way you're not getting my text or calls, and dont give me that ******** lie "i just randomly ghost people" you choose when and your choosing to lie to my face every time you do it with some belittling excuse that doesnt even make any sense. If you were truly telling me the truth you would…

I never needed you to save me. You are a God and I am but a mere sinful priest. When you ignore me, I feel as if I have been convicted to hell. When you speak to me I feel as if I am in the heavens on roads of gold. My God, do you understand how I worship you? How i'd do anything you asked? How id let you destroy me…

My skin cells regenerated.

I've had.milestones I've celebrated.

I moved to a new location.

But I'm still thinking about you…

I guess no answer, is some kind of an answer

I think somewhere along the way we both got scared. We stopped saying some of the things we should have said, we hurt each other, and instead of feeling like we were on the same side, we slowly lost each other.

I don’t want to pretend none of that happened. I just wish we could meet each other again now, knowing what…

I miss u, time or distance doesn't matter to me. Ive tried to stay away because us loving each other has tore us apart. I never wanted this. How you think the way you do about me it hurts me to my soul. We've know each other since childhood. We grew up together, u were there when I lost my virginity. U mean so much to…