Unsent text message to Steven

I never needed you to save me. You are a God and I am but a mere sinful priest. When you ignore me, I feel as if I have been convicted to hell. When you speak to me I feel as if I am in the heavens on roads of gold. My God, do you understand how I worship you? How i'd do anything you asked? How id let you destroy me…

My skin cells regenerated.

I've had.milestones I've celebrated.

I moved to a new location.

But I'm still thinking about you…

I guess no answer, is some kind of an answer

I think somewhere along the way we both got scared. We stopped saying some of the things we should have said, we hurt each other, and instead of feeling like we were on the same side, we slowly lost each other.

I don’t want to pretend none of that happened. I just wish we could meet each other again now, knowing what…

I miss u, time or distance doesn't matter to me. Ive tried to stay away because us loving each other has tore us apart. I never wanted this. How you think the way you do about me it hurts me to my soul. We've know each other since childhood. We grew up together, u were there when I lost my virginity. U mean so much to…

So, you're probably not going to read this..

But I wanted to say how good of a friend you are. And I wish I could've helped with your pain and made you feel at least a little bit better.

You, you're a highlight of my day. When I get home, feeling ******, you make me feel less ******** than I originally did. I like…